Heaven Is A Roadless Area
by Anna Duval

Pisces and the last month of winter are upon us. Ice packs begin their melting down the long flow into the sea. The Sun is slowly getting higher in the sky. Ready gardeners emerge from hibernation to grab the few hours of extra warmth each day, working to cleanse away debris and rotting leaves, eager to find out what the gods of dark and cold have allowed to survive through the long winter. Imbolc, the Celtic celebration that honors the growing power of light, has come and gone, as a check point to ask: "What are we manifesting? Are we on the best path to fulfillment of this new year?"

But there is still the month of Pisces to work with: the cleansing, the letting go, the re-member-ing of our connection to Source and Soul. In the Chinese tradition of the 5 Elements, water (the element of Pisces) is the element of winter. With water the energy is falling, flowing downward, melting or dissolving, and surrendering back into Source. The energies of the passing cycle have condensed down to essence, and all that survives is the hard nugget of seed that simply must return to Source for rest, gestation, and nourishment to begin again. Whatever is not compatible with, and therefore nourished by, Source, will die away. This is Pisces!

In Pisces we experience emotions, challenges and blessings. The key is to open in surrender. Trust and let the feelings flow. This process can't happen in your mind alone. You won't be able to plan, control or anticipate what will come. Heaven is a roadless area! So this trusting heart may take some practice to develop.

In prayer my guides told me, "You need to cry." I responded, "For how long? I've cried so much...how many tears can one person cry? I don't want to keep perpetuating my grief!" My guides said: "Cry until you truly unlock the Flow of feeling. The Flow has no end, and it is not all grief! Tears come as an overwhelm of feeling, and, after you've released pent-up emotions from the past, you are free to feel in the now...sorrow and joy, compassion, beauty, anger and awe. So much more than grief, in the present moment your feeling perceptions and intuitions can flow now, too. This feeling connection to the Source of Nourishment allows and initiates your connection to others, to self, and to the Divine! Feelings are the Source of creative life, that which propels you, as desire, into experience!"

In the creative cycle of the 5 Elements, water creates wood. Wood represents growth and excitement, and leads to social connections. Without our Source/Soul connection in water, where can wood take us? What will there be to get excited about, and to devote ourselves to? How will our relationships and creative endeavors endure and blossom without the firm foundation in the realm of Soul? This Pisces new moon is conjunct Uranus...the well of creative power is being purified. What are the messages you're receiving through your feeling body? How can you embrace and further the opportunities to cleanse? Give way, open your heart, and drink of the Divine!

Quan Yin, Chinese goddess of love and compassion, lives in the realm of watery Pisces, along with her sister goddesses around the world. Quan Yin floats in her lotus-boat upon the sea, and pours forth the waters of grace from her chalice. Spend time this season with the compassionate goddess who most speaks to you. Daily I use the following prayer for healing and strength. I offer it to you now for support in your own healing and awakening during this Piscean season.

Meditate on the Mother
with the White Garment,
holder of Radiant Light,
who has the affectionate glance,
beautiful eyes,
capturing god's love,
a radiant smile,
a face adorned with auspiciousness...

Love nectar she gives so sweetly.
She sings devotional songs most sweetly.
Her complexion resembles
that of the rainclouds...
her words soaked in honey...
She is Bliss Immortal!
My Ishtadevi,
I worship her!

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