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I am writing to you as I am concerned about upcoming transits and eclipse cycles in my chart: specifically, the lunar eclipse on 12/10/11 which was conjunct my natal Moon. My house mate, to whom I felt very close and whose Uranus was is opposite my natal Moon, picked a huge row with me and moved out suddenly after 2 years together just a few days before the eclipse. Transiting Uranus was also near my MC at that time. I am feeling quite crushed by this event and now am concerned about how I will cope with my coming Chiron return. I already feel pretty broken by life (money problems, my beloved cat dying in August and I am all alone). I am not sure I can handle any more breaking even if it is ultimately for my benefit. This November the total solar eclipse will be conjunct my Sun and Venus on my birthday. Then in a few years my progressed Sun will be conjunct my DSC at the same time transiting Pluto will cross my DSC at the same time Uranus will be squaring the ASC/DSC axis. I just almost feel like quitting with all this pressure ahead! I would like to be able to be with someone but have been alone most of my life romantically though I have good friends. Facing all of this alone feels beyond me. Is there any positive way of interpreting these transits and progressions? I was born November 13, 1962. (CA) |
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The many, powerful transits and progressions you describe are important and life changing, especially, when you add the eclipse catalysts. I would never tell a water sign (you have 4 planets in Scorpio, 1 planet in Pisces and Cancer rising) to look forward to more breaking. You do feel life, these recent difficult losses and the sense of what may be coming very keenly. I would definitely read the coming Uranus/Pluto transits to your Ascendant/Descendant angles as your progressed Sun conjuncts the Descendant positively. With your natal Moon in the 12th house quincunxing your Sun/Venus/Mercury and squaring Pluto, your house mate was harboring feelings that exploded when your Moon was triggered by the lunar eclipse completing that relationship. These feelings may or may not have been about you. It was time.
The solar eclipse is much more likely to signal a new beginning romantically and creatively as it conjuncts your Sun at your birthday in the 5th house. First, a lunar eclipse conjuncting a 12th house Moon is very different than a solar eclipse conjuncting a 5th house Sun. I am excited to see your Sun progressing to your Descendant which I see as an indicator of a partner coming into your life. Currently, your progressed Sun is trining your natal Pluto which is also positive. The coming Uranus square to your Ascendant/Descendant is going to change your experience with relationships. Since your early life has been one of romantic lack and disappointment, a true Uranian change would be a fulfilling partnership. Both Saturn's natal position in your 7th house of partnership and the fact that Saturn rules your 7th clarify the timing of a satisfying relationship in your life being later, likely after 45. In 2012, you will be 50 as the solar eclipse highlights this birthday renewal. It is time.
Your natal Saturn does quincunx Uranus/Pluto which has contributed to breakups, losses and loneliness thus far in your life; however, I believe Saturn's natal conjunction to your South Node of the Moon indicates your familiarity in past lives with being alone. In this life, your North Node in Leo, Scorpio stellium in the 5th house and Mars in Leo are seeking a life of love and connection. I would suggest you focus on using this alone time in your home creatively and spiritually to enter into your 12th house Moon as the goddess you are healing the wounds of your Jupiter/Chiron conjunction in the 9th house opposing Uranus conjunct Pluto in the 3rd house. There is a spiritual path to healing that is calling you as you near your Chiron return. It is time to study, read, listen, write (the 3rd and 9th house) and go within (the Moon in the 12th) to fully tap into the power of your Scorpio stellium.
I don't want to over simplify the transits and progressions you wisely see approaching but I do want to encourage you to see the larger healing ahead and to enter the work that will engage the power of these aspects to be as positive as they are life changing. |